May Ee, I love you. I might have many other close friends who I wouldn't give up for anything in the world, but the truth is, you're the only one who has ever completely accepted me for who I am. Thank you.

Every other girl friend I have expects me to:
- Reply to texts. Always.
- Never miss a call.
- Inform her when I'm not coming to school.
- Stick together with her throughout the school day. God forbid I even sit in class with someone else.
- Meet up with her every waking minute. On the way to school, before morning assembly, during free periods and lunch, after school, on holidays.

And if I don't do any of that, they take it personally. As if failing to do all that means that I don't care about them. Bull. Shit. I feel so suffocated sometimes. I don't know why they can't just understand me and let me do my own thing. I can't be around one person for more than a few hours, truth. I GET SICK OF LOOKING AT YOUR FACE. YES, EVEN IF YOU LOOK LIKE A GREEK GOD. Even if you look like him. I hope my future boyfriends don't have such ridiculous expectations of me. I'm not the kind of girl that'll hesitate to cut you off after just a week if I think it's not working out, just so you know. I'll just be like "hey, the last week was fun, but I think I've to move on to better things. Adios!" and I'll just keep on walking.

But anyway, May Ee, you were the only one who never forced me to do any of that shit. Who never whined or guilt tripped me and made me feel like a bad friend. And I know it's because you're the same hahah. You are like a breath of fresh air after all my other friendships. I feel like I can actually relax around you, without constantly wondering what's going to go wrong the next moment. We both appreciate our space. We are cool like that, high five (bitch I don't care if you don't like high fives, make an exception)!

SK, I love you. We'd only a little time together, and I regret that. But we'd a lot of quality time to spend together hahah! We're always getting ditched, and we always end up having lunch alone together. Which I know you're bummed out about for certain reasons, but it was always fine by me, because we have so much to talk about. Fast food and pickles and reading and rock music ftw. I was always glad to see your face in school. And you've never failed to amuse me whenever I say hi to you, because you'll stare at me for a second with a blank expression like it hasn't registered yet, then all of a sudden you'll wave enthusiastically. No one's ever seemed that happy to see me before, so thank you, it's nice to know that my royal presence is appreciated by some people after all :P But hey, you need to chill. Don't be so uptight. Strive to achieve your goals, but don't crush others in the process. I know you're competitive. It's a good quality to have. But the people you're competing against are not your enemies. Relax, live a little. Love everyone. Open up and give them a chance, like you gave me. If you need someone to listen, I'm always here.

Hwee, I love you. You've this amazing ability to disarm people and make them feel comfortable while talking to you. I feel so relaxed when I'm around you. As if we both just smoked a whole bag of weed. And I feel so lucky that you were in my Math class. Because I needed you there. For obvious reasons. I needed someone who could make me loosen up and feel like I can breathe. And you did much more than that. You teased me, you gave me nicknames, you made me laugh at the worst possible timings, and somewhere along the way, I found a true friend in you, and I'm glad. People always tell me that I smile all the time, and they wonder how I can be so happy. But Hwee, those people wouldn't say that if they'd met you. My happiness is like a candle. It'll burn out after a while, until someone replaces it. But your happiness? It's like the sun, always burning brighter, bringing light to other people.

Qing, I love you. You're the first person who I ever talked to in our class, and I wouldn't change that for anything. I wish we could live those two days of Orientation again and again. Remember us wearing all those glowsticks and marching into the hall with our Darwin cheer, messing up here and there while performing, then fangirling like crazy every time a korean song came on in another group's performance (especially if it was from Big Bang or Beast)? I know we have our differences, and there were times when I felt like I couldn't really connect with you...but that last month before I left? I felt closer to you than ever. Yes, including Orientation. You're a genuinely nice person, Qing. You care about everyone. And your shoulder is top quality material, the best kind to lean on :P Thank you for caring about me, for worrying about me, for running with me even when we're not required to and everyone else looks at us like we're out of our minds, for being high with me, and for always encouraging me.

Qi, I love you. It's so easy to talk to you without holding back. We have the same expectations and the same turn-offs. And remember what I said at the airport? You were one of the girls who stood out to me even on the first day of class. You were so...approachable. I didn't know back then that we'd end up friends, let alone in the same clique. You're adorable, from your surprised "no?"s and the way your laugh sounds to the way you sound when you speak korean while batting your eyelashes. I know I said XY is my first choice, but I take that back. You're my first ;) So stop being so insecure about yourself (especially about your weight wtf, you're thin but not too thin, you're perfect). My mind basically works like a guy's anyway, so if you're my first, you can bet you're first on a lot of guys' lists as well. And also, thank you for always managing to cheer me up without even realizing it.

Juan, I love you. Honestly? At first, when school started, I thought we'd never click. But weeks passed and I began talking to you more and more, and I realized how much fun I had with you. And you're the only person who ever gives me attitude :O I like that part too, though. I kind of miss it. But you always look so...down. Remember that first time I told you I watched Dong Yi and you jumped up and down excitedly? I saw a new side of you that day. And you looked beautiful. You should smile like that more, you're prettiest when you smile. And you always managed to make me laugh even when you weren't trying to! Shh, this is our little secret, but you give the best hugs I've ever received, the kind that make me feel like I never want to let go. Thank you, Auntie Juan.

A, I love you. But I'm trying to stop.